life

i know the philosophy of life, but it's just damn hard to live by it. the one thing that keeps me living to the next day is the hope that tomorrow brings something.
everyone says live in the present, but i just can't seem to do it. does it mean that my life is miser bale? i hope not and think not.
but to a considerable degree i think it can be better. only for one simple reason, i had a better life. when i say had I'm not talking about yesterday but two years back.
yes two years back, i had every hing i wanted. the question that i ask myself is my life more miserable than before because of the interest in different things ? NO
i think it's about the things that i had and i still need it now. i still want the same things but when is it time to let go. it was a part of me forever and then how can i let myself go. if i do, how can i feel about myself?
this is all too intriguing to me at the moment. i think looking to the future is not bad at all because it helps me to survive through the bad episodes of my life.