paper

writing paper is dealt with frustration and procastination. One thing leads to another. I get frustrated because i cannot pick a topic that is worth writing about and prove that it's a worthy topic to read. at the end i chose a topic because i have not much time left to write the paper. but then i keep thinking that if i had chosen the other topic would i still be on the same page (1) or page 3???. since my mind is not very good with distances, i go ahead and start writing about the other topic. after half an hour i have 3 pages( like i had expected) except for the fact that each page has diffrent subjects. my mind is not very good with time, so i can't seem to fugure out which subject was the easiest to write about.

so i have 3 topics with 3 pages and less than 3 days left to write my paper.

life

i know the philosophy of life, but it's just damn hard to live by it. the one thing that keeps me living to the next day is the hope that tomorrow brings something.
everyone says live in the present, but i just can't seem to do it. does it mean that my life is miser bale? i hope not and think not.
but to a considerable degree i think it can be better. only for one simple reason, i had a better life. when i say had I'm not talking about yesterday but two years back.
yes two years back, i had every hing i wanted. the question that i ask myself is my life more miserable than before because of the interest in different things ? NO
i think it's about the things that i had and i still need it now. i still want the same things but when is it time to let go. it was a part of me forever and then how can i let myself go. if i do, how can i feel about myself?
this is all too intriguing to me at the moment. i think looking to the future is not bad at all because it helps me to survive through the bad episodes of my life.